Evil in me

The shadow behind me grows
Out of control
I look here and there to figure out
What fresh new devil has just fallen upon me
I brust off and kill everyone near by
As i start thinking, as i start talking
Heart in me gets stonified
Blood in me turns to fabric
i still breathe though the soul in me is no more
All that is left in me is mere lump of flesh

And than again
My heart of stone starts throbbing
And the fabric reaches my brain
I open my eyes to see the grave i created
From the ones that were mine
Shamelessly i cross through all my dids
And then again i walk alone

"म" हुनुको अस्तित्व

आँखा भरि आएका ऑँशुहरू

खस्न खोज्छन, बलिन्र्द झरि झरेझै 

बग्न खोज्छन

चारै दिशाबाट, सबै खोज्छन

म भित्र रित्इएको मेरो अस्तित्व

हारेर ओराली लागेको मृगझै म

आफैभित्र खोतल्छु, "म" को अर्थ

सोघ्छु, के यहि हो म?

के यहि हो मेरो स्थान?

जिउदै मरेको लाशझै विवश 

ठिन्ड उभिएको लाश 

बिफल हुन्छ उत्तरदिन

चिच्याउछ मनमनै

भुतभुताउछ अाफैसँग

आफैले सुन्ने डरले काँन थुन्छ

लाँमो सास लिन्छ 

र 

भुसुक्क निदाउछ र

फेरि बिर्सन्छ

"म" हुनुको अस्तित्व...........

Missing mom

The ripple is the same

But the sea is blue no more

Colorless, fake and alone he seems

Violently bangs the shore and calms himself

Again and again, and again and again...............

The breeze kisses his skin

The same way it has always been doing

But he just feels shaken and cold

Sees the kisses no more

Sees the embrace no more

Heedless he pretends

Intensifies himself to the apex 

More than the shore could possibly muster

Smacks brutally and destroys all that she dried

But happily she absorb all the wraths in 

And frees the heartless to his cool

Tranquilly and peacefully

Easily for forever and forever...............

Virtual me

A strange wind blows
When the thought of your presence intrigue
Make the cruel world around me to be vanished
The peace of mind for a while
A shallow thought magnifies itself for a thousand of times
And searches for a tune to possibly harmonize you
Unaware but delighted me for a moment
Utters a hundred and thousands of nonsenses
To possibly please you and may be fascinate your heavy heart
To the light idiot jokes of mine.....
But till the time i realize
How virtually flown was i
The bastard world  dwells to justify my pledge to prayer
 And accuses me to be kissing your feet
The untold truth, but clear as the blue sky
The poisoned  dart  from everyones eyes
Confuses me, is this life or lie than i am living in
I feel wicked,like a owl sick on the sunshine........
I turn to you for a glimpse of hope
A solace of all my tyrrany
But...................

read Ghumne mrch mathi ando manchhe

ghumne mech mathi ando manchhe (Bhoopi Serchan)

मन किन मन्दैन???????

यो छिया छिया भैएको मुटु का टुक्रा हरु
युग भरि नसन्गालिने भताभुन्ग सपना बोकिरहेछु
फेरि पनि डुन्गा मा एक्लै अगि लग्दा पाइला मेट्दै छु भन्न
मन किन मन्दैन

आनौठो अन्त्यहिन सफ़र सन्गै घिस्रिदै
परेलि बाट तप्प तप्प मुल्यहिन  झोल झर्दै छू
तैपनि ओसिएको सुतली माथिको चिराग निभि सक्यो भन्न
 मन किन मन्दैन???????

ज़ीउभरि मया र प्रेम का उपहाररुपि खटा बोकेर
छाति भित्र का अशा हरु आखै अगडि ओइलाइ सक्दा
फेरि पनि सास बिना नै जिउदै छु भन्न
मन किन मन्दैन?????

Naya Goreto

Tyo goreto
aja jhalla 6
aakash ko chati vitrako
chandra  muskuraye jasto 6

tyo goretoko ujyalo
jasko ek yug ma muhaan thuniyeko thiyo
jaslai phohor,maila ra sadeka samaan ko paryaye banayieko thyo
jasko ujaadta lai thukera hajaarau patak latyaieko thiyo
jasma khileka dui thunga phool nimothiyera kulchiyiyeko thiyo
ho!tyehenai aklo purano goretoma
aaja basanti bahaar aayeko 6
daiba le paani ta aaja naya dharma gareka 6n
chakamanna goreto ma aaja deep jaleko 6

ho goreto le aaja patro phereko 6
jasma aasha ra avilasha jasta sabda ko aauchitya 6ina
jaska prem ra trishna jadit haarafharu metiyeka 6n
jasvitraka paap ra aahankaar ka daagharu dohiyiaka 6n
jasvitra tekiyeka lalachtaka doob haru bhariyeaka 6n
ho!tyehinai durgandit goretoma
aja samyamatako akhhtar chariyeko 6
naya phuleka phoolka daalima vamaraharu haasiraheka 6n
aandhakaar ko kaalo dhadda jaleko 6.......................

Bhuichalo

Ayo ayo,khai kina ,tahai napai aayo
.alashya jiban mai ramaune mera pailaharu lai
 ekassi tantra mantra garne ko ho tyo?


dukhi dukha ko bhumari ma 
batchi raheko mero man
anayas ko yo santras paida garna khojne 
ko ho tyo anjaan?




tmi ayau tmi gayau,
santrasai santras ko bhumari ma malai mutchera,
kukur ko bhukai ma,suteka ko ghurai ma,
jhalyas jhalyas malai uthai ,
mero nindari ko pyaro chari bhurra udaune tmi ko?

aalag

Tyo chandrama tira bata ayeko hunupar6
.natra manabta ko khani tyo kasari banna sak6a.
yo hitlar ra jangabadhur haru ko duniya ma,
sabai dukhi haru ko masiya tyo kasari banna sak6.


maile balapan dherai ko dekhe ko 6u.
hatkela le hilo kthelauda.rog sarla ki bhanera mahanga sabun ra detergent le ama le hat dhoi diyeko dekhe ko 6u.
haina tyo aru nai ghraha upaghraha bata ayeko hunu par6,
natra tes ko balapan aru bhanda yeti prithak kasari huna sak6.


maile patjhad dekhe ko 6u
.roi karai afno dukha besayera barsa garaune haru dekhe ko 6u.
tyo pakkai pani beglai duniya ko asal prani hunu par6a.
natra afno asu piyera,yini patjhad ko bitch ma fakriyeko ful tyo kasari huna sak6


.lamkhutte le jyu pwal parera,
arka ko ragat chusdai jiban chalayeko dekhe ko 6u maile..
yo daitya lok ma.tes ko matrai atma bhitra paramatma ko bas bhayeko hunupar6.
natra afu nakhayera aru lai mitho khwaune thuloman tes ko kasari huna sak6.


maile chess ko khel dekhe ko 6u.
satta ko lagi sipahai ko munto retne rajniti deheko 6u.
tes ko dimag ko taul ali kati mutu tira sareko hunu par6
.natra niswartha manab sewa ko bhawana tes ma kasari hunasak6..


Maile prem dekheko 6u.
prem bhitra lukeko swarthi dara pni dekheko 6u.
tes le pakkai pani manis ko garva bata janmeko haina.
natra niskapat prem ko pujari,
tyo madan kasari banna sak6.

Ma

Bhagya kendrit mero yo anayas khoji,
anginti tauka le malai,ma naganya bhayeko avas garau6n.
vetnu ra paunu ko yo antyahin khojle,
kahile bagmati ra kahihe bisnumati ko darshan garau6n


mera pahila ka sashanhin hidai.
ghari ghari ghadi ko tik tik sunau6n,
balatkarit chahanana ..bhavukta bitch ko ragatamya sansar
.pal pal mero swadhinta mathi falame prashna chinna uthau6n


boulayera,chichyera ma asuka sagar banauna chahan6u.
gala fatai...chyati hasauna khojin6
.khaderi pareka mera khappar ka masu lai ma premrus nichera pokhna chahan6u,
palai palo mero man tagaro mai thokin6.


.mera daiba,tmi 6u bhane,mero hat samaideu.
pal pal ma mardai 6u ma,
aah dara dekhai pitchas kuri rahe6,
ghisaridai ratches ko panja ma pardai 6u ma....

Udne nai 6u ma

Aja mero balio man thakeko 6
hiddai gare ko bato mai harayi raheko 6u
safal jiban jyuna ko nimti thuprai bho bhogeko pni
pheri arko khaldo ma khutta fasayeko 6u

ajai ho jiban ma pahilo patak hatyara baneko ma
ho ajai maile mero sapana ko ghati reteko 6u
duniya ko agadi furti dekhauna ko lagi
thulo bannu parne soch ko bitch ma na pareko 6u.


...ho ajai dekhi samaye le malai ghaite banayeko 6
thulo thulo mrigatrishna ma fasera ma ada mareko 6u
kilkile nimothiyera kik kik pari sake
khai yo kasto chepuwa ma ma pareko 6u?


nabujne bhanau sabaiko gyan ra bidhya le
sikhar chumeka 6n
thulo mahal bhitra ko sano kotha ma
mera pankha thuneka 6n...


khai mero atma baulayeko hunupar6 aja
kina malai udna joshyaudai 6
badal le pani tyo mamatamayi hat
swagat garna tersyaudai 6.............


.ek din ta aaune nai 6
yo pinzada ma todne nai 6u
ekdin ta aune nai 6
pakheta fijai ma udne nai 6u........ 

Bhan6n ni bhanne haru...

Sayau patak ufri ladi..makura le jalo bun6
patcharinda dukhe ko dhada
samjhi samjhi eklai run6
bhanne gar6n bhanne haru
dukha gara fal mil6
jibro larbaraye jhai sahaj
bastawikta kaha hun6.....

chandra khojdai akasa ma
udhdai udhai ayeko 6u
aba bhete bhanda bhandai.
bihan maile payeko 6u.
bhanne gar6n bhanne haru.
dhunga khojda deuta mil6.
jibro larbarae jhai sahaj.
bastawikta kaha hun6......


chiya chiya mutu pari.
euta papi lop hun6
tmro atma chichyeko
khai kasle kaha sun6.
bhanne gar6n bhanne haru.
deutako tesro netra hun6..
jibro larbaraye jhai sahaj.
bastawikata kaha hun6.... 

Afnai atma bhulu parda

Kasto hun6 taha 6 malai,
afnai atma bhulnu parda..
samjhiyera ghari ghari,
anfnai mutu chyati ranu parda

Tmle chumeka tei khasra hat..
ajhai eklai chudai 6u ma..
asar ko yo jhari sangai
ajhai pani rudai 6u ma....

mriga jastai chanchal thiyau,
surya ko kiran muhaar ma thiyo..
gulaf banai sajayethe manmai,
kada bani bizi diyo...

.kasle buj la ra,
tara bani afnai chardra ghurnu parda...
Kasto hun6 taha 6 malai,
afnai atma bhulnu parda..

Ama

Tyo chapro muni ki budi amai,
asar ko yo jhari le dikkiyeki 6in.
jyu dhakne ek saro napugeko ko bela ma,
paral ko tyndro kinna nasakera pilpilai rahe ki 6in....

6ora 6ori dr.pilot.
bank ma paisa atena are.
khole gholna ti budi lai.
.pitho ko dhulo bhetinan hare...

.yehi jado mai ti budi ko,
ghaito ko pidh chisyaye 6..
sapana thulo mitho khane..
daiba le nai jhukyae 6...

plastik bhitra garva liye.
.tuppi e ka 6ora 6ori...
barsau bhayo tv ko khoki
,marne aja natra voli....


ragat ko asu jhar6in uni..
asu haina shrap ko gola..
daiba hunthyo ta,ama ko asu,.
.khai kasari sahanthyo hola.....

Afno ko?

Swargai hare pani oho bhanne koi 6ina,
bato birayis taile aba vanne pani koi haina....
kolahal le mero awaj gunjina diyekai 6ina,
ho ho mero dimag ma udhisthir fulekai 6ina......


balla balla mahal sajyo,
khahare urlio,sorera lagyo.
vawana ra mera asu
nimityanna hune nai bhayo.
tmi ma dankeko ago le
ajhai malai choyekai 6ina...
ho ho mero dimag ko ravan le dera sarekai 6ina.

Mero haar

Wori pari,sara dunya,
panchi sari udeko dekh6u.
.khula akas,kanchan hawa,
chadani lai chumeko dekh6u
.fatfatau6n mera pani
khosta rupi pakheta yi.
.ujyalo ta dara lag6,
andhakar mai ghumne gar6u....




.banda 6inan kasakai ka mukh
,mukhadarshak banne gar6u
..jitai jit ko bhumari ma,
ma tuch6 6upeko 6u...
khappar bhari sukhai sukha
kun jat ka panchi hun yi.
.ujyalo ma dara lag6
,andhakar mai udne gar6u.

Ma pagal budi ko choro

Tmi churi lukayera
..parewa udauneko jamata ma..
maile ho ma ho milauna janina
tmi ago salkayera.
.pani ko phohora khojne haru ma.
.maile barud mathi salai ko munto ghisarna janina.
 ..tmro aaa ma alankar nabujne.
.ho ma tehi pagal budi ko 6oro




.tmi gala chumera..
mutu retne haru ma.
.maile khukuri udhyauna janina..
.tmi dudh panchayera.
.ragat chusne juka haruma,
maile narasamhaar garna janina.
.tehi kalo lai seto bhanna najanne.
.ho ma tehi pagal budi ko choro.

Jiban

Kasai ko navayeko,mero ghadi..
pheri rat ko 12 bajyo...
jyu ko haina,yo samayeko tal tal.
.pheri hat ma lighter paryo...


nidari re haar khaiien..
santa paila agi saryo..
lukayeko yehi thiye..
haina jiban kata paryo...

manle hunna bhanda bhandai
dhoka lagyo.jhyal khulyo..
lighter khyassa gardina le
,feri mero jiban jalyo.........


.kasaiko nabhayeko mero ghadi,
12 haina 1 bazyo...
nidari re haar khaiien..
santa paila agi saryo.....
lukayeko yehi thiye..
haina jiban kata paryo..
lighter khyassa gardina le,
feri arko jiban jalyo..........